hopeful

to be perfectly honest, this word is more than a little forced for me right now, but i keep trying to reinforce it in myself every day.

first of all, since graduating i have been trying to find a job, and so far haven’t hit on much. because of this it has been somewhat difficult to remain hopeful, but i am keeping at it each day. for one thing it is hard to find the right direction to take after finishing college finally. it’s so strange not to be a student anymore!

being such an indecisive person doesn’t help either. i really am not sure what i would most love to do, so i always say i am open to most anything, and maintain that i will take whatever pays me the most. that is really true at this point. and if it turns out i hate whatever that is, then changes can be made.

i’ve been worrying a lot because i have so much that i am owing and no money coming in. i hate not being more on top of my finances, but it really has always been so. i want to take a more organized approach this year to taking care of these things, but i’m still really at square one until i have some money coming in!

shifting the focus from me, i have to admit that listening to the state of the union address tonight i did regain some of my initial inspiration that i felt for our president. although part of me feels like our government has lost touch to some extent and that maybe some of what he was saying was simply rhetoric, i tend to believe in the larger ideals he speaks to, and tonight i felt somewhat reassured. whether that reassurance is deserved or not, we will see.

still it’s nice to feel inspired. it makes me hopeful, which it’s never bad to be in short supply of.